How I have missed you! Despite my absence, I think about this place and this community often. I started my new job back in January and I have fallen hard and fast for my new career. I have been reading, listening and learning as much as I possibly can and despite having absolutely no prior experience, I am kind of crushing it (dusts off shoulder).
I have also been learning how to not be a teacher, which has been a challenge I didn’t expect. I have had to adjust to a schedule that doesn’t allow my whole body and brain to shut down at 3:00 every afternoon, which it has been trained to do my whole life. Sorry body, there are still 2+ more hours left in our work day! It’s been a very real struggle. I am learning to sleep again in that restful kind of way. I’ve learned not to mind Sundays. I am learning to be happy and teaching my body how to let go of all the stress I still had in me from my last career. I’ve had to see people to help me with the stress I can’t work out on my own, but it’s working. I am really and truly so much happier.
I think often of how unhappy I was last year and how terrified I was to jump off a career cliff, sort of maybe only a little trusting there would be a net to catch me. I think of all the tears and and anxiety and the times I thought, oh god, I’ve made a huge mistake, but also knowing I hadn’t. Happiness is worth the risk. It’s worth the fight.
In these past few months during this accidental hiatus from this blog, I have been getting myself back to that place where I am really and truly happy and taking the time to enjoy it. I made a resolution when I moved back and started this brand new life that I was going to start doing things. REAL things, not just eating or drinking at places. So I have gone to galleries indoors and out. I have visited museums, and attended new events. I’ve had friends over for lunches, dinners, teas and conversations. I have gone to the places that I’ve been “meaning to go to”, but never did. I have relaxed. I have read. I have sat on quiet patios with no book or phone or journal and enjoyed the stillness of my own company (also Cooper’s because he usually comes too).
This is all not to say that I have been entirely off the grid. I have been instagramming (@accidentalamanda), Snapchatting up a storm (username: euphoriagirl), Facebooking (accidentaleuphoria) and Tweeting (@accidentaleg). I am so grateful for these social communities. I love following all of your stories on snapchat. I love the father who recaps his day with his daughter every night. I love your adventures and travels. I love all of your dogs!! I love my twitter community and your delightful snarkiness. You never cease to amaze me, say the right thing when I need it, or make me laugh. Really really laugh.
I think I am at the end of this accidental hiatus. I have so many stories to tell, and I am finally feeling ready to tell them. I’ll try to get a few posts up this week. Because I love you, and it’s time.
In the meantime, choose happiness. It is so so worth it.